I heard it again this morning for the umpteenth time “…we had to fearlessly face the proposition that either God is everything or else He is nothing. God either is, or He isn’t.” If you’re anything like me, it’s not lost on you that this flies in the face of ‘… or higher power as we understand …” not to say rational reasoning.
This saying and others in a similar vein nearly drove me from AA and invited me to argue and verbally spar. I’ve chosen to not drink every drink of alcohol that I desperately wanted to drink to escape since getting sober. I’ve chosen to go to every meeting that I’ve gone to. Though, I seem to know where I’m going at 7 am, my car does not just show up in the parking lot of Fitchburg Serenity Club.
Writing poems help me see and they help me be. They help me find a place when I sometimes feel like I do not fit in. For I do want to be part of rather than apart. Being apart almost killed me. I do believe that AA saved my life. Over time I’ve found a voice and a vocabulary that focuses on what I believe and what I do to stay sober and to live with presence, integrity, love and kindness rather than what I do not believe in.
The Chosen Ones
WE are the CHOSEN ONES
And I can’t help but wonder
Why US and not THEM
The very idea wrinkles my skin
And rasps away at my soul
For you see that just
Does not feel right
For I know how special I am (not)
Lucky by birth the time and place
And choices made and not
Impulse and intentions
But I’d rather be me a part of WE
Rather than CHOSEN
US not THEM
About the Author
Robert B. is sober alcoholic in Madison, WI participating in AA and AlAnon at Fitchburg Serenity Club. He has been sober since April 21, 2007. He also began writing and sharing poetry on Facebook during his first year sober as part of his recovery from alcohol dependency, acute anxiety and chronic depression. He has found that creativity expressed primarily through writing poetry and playing various stringed instruments helped him heal and thrive.