Amidst the Chaos About Me I See

Amidst the Chaos About Me I See: Aubrey and Floyd, Cooper and Karens, masks and no masks, pandemic and hoax, guns in state capitals and Minneapolis burning, … 

I

Amidst the swirling 
Chaos about me I see
A cascade of emotions
Birthed by images
And words on a screen
I want to cry 
I want to scream
I want to flee
I want to fight
Amidst the swirling
Chaos about me I see

II

Amidst the swirling 
Chaos about me I see
Urgent fearful desperation 
Grabs me in a stranglehold 
I’m ashamed of being me
Thoughts and images
I cannot let go and yet
Cannot hold in my fearful heart
Lives reduced to tweets
And tribal taunts
Obscure the pain of loss 
Amidst the swirling
Chaos about me I see

III

Amidst the swirling
Chaos about me I see
It’s stillness I need
A place to breathe
And a refuge to be
To let go of urgency
And let life slow 
Just a little 
95 89 87 83 
97 94 92 88
82 77 79 81
75 74 73 72
Go the beats of my heart
Amidst the swirling
Chaos about me I see

IV

Amidst the swirling
Chaos about me I see
Within the precious pauses
Awareness gives birth
To clarity and possibilities 
Coalesce in heart body and mind
A way to break free from this trance
A path forward with the voice I need
Amidst the swirling
Chaos about me I see


About the Author

Robert B. is a sober alcoholic in Madison, WI participating in AA and AlAnon at Fitchburg Serenity Club. He has been sober since April 21, 2007. He also began writing and sharing poetry on Facebook during his first year sober as part of his recovery from alcohol dependency, acute anxiety and chronic depression. He has found that creativity expressed primarily through writing poetry and playing various stringed instruments helped him heal and thrive.  

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Lena
Lena
1 month ago

I love how this poem talks about a way forward. Not a simple avoidance of the issues, but a way for the necessary response to the issues becomes more clear. That’s how I interpreted it, anyway. Thank you so much for sharing your work with us!

Robert B
Robert B
1 month ago
Reply to  Lena

Thank you Lena. Yes a way forward was exactly what unfolded as I wrote. These 3 parts were each written over 3 consecutive days. Like so much of what I write, I begin in one place and end up in another, sometimes unexpected place, in writing and in life.
 
thank you for your kind and thoughtful comment.
 
Robert