Some Days Are Hard

Some Days Are Hard: Some Days Are Easy: Most Days Are Both: Living sober has been full of nuance. Sometimes simple. Sometimes complicated. Often complex. Sometimes ‘the next right thing’ is clear and easy to see. Other times, I am hopelessly confused.

Lately empathy has exhausted me at times and compassion has been elusive. There seems to be so much ‘suffering inside and outside of these rooms’. Sober, empathy and compassion are ideals and practices that I value. Sober, I have learned to befriend awareness, good or bad, pleasurable or painful. I try to hold all of these mindfully throughout my day as moments come and go.

Some Days Are Hard: Some Days Are Easy: Most Days Are Both

Some days are hard
Too much of too much
Worry fear anger sadness
These oh they do nip
At my heels all the day long
Making me too tired to sleep

Some days are quite easy
I flow like the river gentle
Watching things come and go
Rise and fall as if on a wave
Giving feelings their room
As I sigh and breathe deeply of this my life

Some hard days are easy
And some easy days are hard
When empathy exhausts me
And empathy fills me with love
This river of mine rages and roils
And it runs gentle and free


About the Author

Robert B. is a sober alcoholic in Madison, WI participating in AA and AlAnon at Fitchburg Serenity Club. He has been sober since April 21, 2007. He also began writing and sharing poetry on Facebook during his first year sober as part of his recovery from alcohol dependency, acute anxiety and chronic depression. He has found that creativity expressed primarily through writing poetry and playing various stringed instruments helped him heal and thrive.

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Beth
Beth
2 months ago

Stunningly beautiful.

Robert B
Robert B
2 months ago
Reply to  Beth

🙏

Mathew
Mathew
2 months ago

Thank you for this piece.

“Sober, I have learned to befriend awareness, good or bad….” spot on Robert.

Awareness is the essence of my recovery and the practice of staying in the moment rather then my attempts to control, manipulate, judge or label everything. The longer I stay sober and become aware of the beauty of true reality that surrounds me the easier for me it is to be right here. As I remain intentionally sober and in recovery I have learned I love the present moment through the awareness of the awe of life.

Robert B
Robert B
2 months ago
Reply to  Mathew

Thank you. Setting intentions and living mindfully with intentions is a cornerstone of sobriety for me too. Awareness is now such a gift and once upon a time, awareness was a curse.

Michael Smith
Michael Smith
2 months ago

This is beautiful Robert. I particularly like “exhausted by empathy, too tired for compassion “.
Pretty much my usual state these days🙁.

Robert B
Robert B
2 months ago
Reply to  Michael Smith

Thank you Michael. A friend in recovery reminded me of the power of loving kindness, compassion, sympathetic joy, and equanimity meditation practice.