Robert B

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Words

Words

81,260 words 4,028 poems (or thereabouts) – a story I write, changing my life each day. I began writing and posting a poem each day beginning in my first few months sober. I didn’t know how long I would do this – I didn’t have a long-term plan other than I knew that I needed to stay…

Darkness and Depression

Darkness and Depression

Sober 12 years and I still have bouts of anxiety and depression. Once upon a time, alcohol helped with anxiety symptoms and allowed me to be engaged and productive. It worked so well that I did not develop any other anxiety-coping behaviors…

About Intimacy

About Intimacy

Intimacy: “…The primary fact that we fail to recognize is our total inability to form a true partnership with another human being. This is the baffling feature of alcoholism as we know it…

Have You Ever Said, “I Tried Meditating, But It Was Too Hard?”

Have You Ever Said, “I Tried Meditating, But It Was Too Hard?”

Have You Ever Said, “I Tried Meditating, But It Was Too Hard?” Me too! For several years now, I have shared in 12 step meetings, that Step 11 (in many versions of 12 steps) is my foundation for recovery…

Recovering Joy: A Mindful Life After Addiction

Recovering Joy: A Mindful Life After Addiction

Kevin Griffin’s Recovering Joy: A Mindful Life After Addiction provides a path to what challenges many in recovery, ‘I’ve stopped drinking alcohol or using drugs, now what…

Transforming Fear

Transforming Fear

Recovery has been transformative for me. Upon reflection, transformation is the essential action explicit in many of AA’s twelve steps, not just Step 12. This holds true for pretty much all secular versions of the steps…

My Journeys Thus Far

My Journeys Thus Far

My Journeys Thus Far – once upon a time, I was driven to seek, to escape life unfulfilled. I wanted more. More of what I could not say. I plotted a course and followed a path towards the sense of success I desperately sought. Education…

Groan. Groan. Not Another Gratitude Meeting

Groan. Groan. Not Another Gratitude Meeting

I’ve been to approximately 4,565,625 meetings since spring 2007. I heard then and I continue to hear now, people often apologize for suggesting gratitude as topic for a discussion or sharing meeting following the painful interminably long 15 second pause after a topic is invited by the chair…

Maybe We Are Doing the Best We Can

Maybe We Are Doing the Best We Can

The other day I was watching an episode of Monk. “Mr. Monk Takes His Medicine.” At some point after an obvious failure with considerable consequences, Sharona, his assistant, attempts to comfort him by suggesting that he is just doing the best that he can. What can I say, I’ll take insight from any and all sources…

Fathers and Sons, Parents and Children, Forgiveness

Fathers and Sons, Parents and Children, Forgiveness

I recently found my first gratitude journal tucked away between two books, The Soul of Rumi, by Coleman Barks, and Stanislaw Lem’s, The Further Adventures of Ion Tichy (my tastes are eclectic to say the least) while packing books to replace some bookcases. My first entry from May 14, 2007, when I was three weeks sober included gratitude for…