Nothing is more powerful than our personal stories. Here you will find the experience, strength and hope shared by the agnostic, atheist and freethinker in Alcoholics Anonymous.

Penelope’s Story

Penelope’s Story

This story began forty-five years ago, but to tell it, we need to begin at a more recent point in time in September 2020 when I attended the San Antonio, Mostly Agnostics, A.A., Zoom meeting. I have become a regular attendee because the San Antonians provides an atheist…

A Love Letter

A Love Letter

I need to find a way to stop my “us and them” mentality. On several occasions, while attending A. A. meetings, emotions have arisen in me that are far removed from the compassion inherent in Buddhist practice…

A Journal of the Plague Year

A Journal of the Plague Year

I take the title of this essay from the 1722 English work of Daniel Defoe which is a fictionalized account of the last great Bubonic Plague outbreak in London of 1665. I am writing this piece in September of 2020 when the entire world is in the midst of its…

Recovery and Spiritual Bypassing

Recovery and Spiritual Bypassing

While I’m committed to the practise of spiritual principles as a part of my recovery from alcohol and other drug addiction, the emphasis within Alcoholics Anonymous (AA) on being accepting, compassionate, tolerant, unselfish and loving, etc, and of “practising these principles in all our affairs”, combined with literal interpretation…

Emotional Sobriety

Emotional Sobriety

Emotional sobriety is a term thrown around recovery circles.  It implies that we have more to recover from than just the physically addictive properties of alcohol. When I first got sober, I thought that it was the physically addictive properties of alcohol that kept me sick…

My Story Retold for the 32nd Time

My Story Retold for the 32nd Time

It was 1981, and I was nineteen years old and in my sophomore year at the University of Kansas, where I was living in a fraternity house. I was responsible for stocking the fraternity’s beer machine, actually an old soda machine that I would load with bottles of Coors…

Another Point of View

Another Point of View

One of the more difficult phrases for me in the book Alcoholics Anonymous occurs on page fifty-three. The verbiage made me feel as if someone were trying to sell me something. It wasn’t a drastic aversion but more that someone had rubbed my fur the wrong way.  The…

Living in the Present with the Past and With the Future

Living in the Present with the Past and With the Future

One day at a time. Living in the present. Be here, be here now. Useful AA and beyond slogans. But … But for me an impossible task. The idea, though attractive, evokes something akin to the magical thinking required of me by let go and let god. Even more secular oriented…

My Recovery Journey – By A Twelve Step Agnostic

My Recovery Journey – By A Twelve Step Agnostic

As a child, I had the common experience of growing up in a home with an alcoholic parent.  My step-father was a daily drinker who was incapable of forming a loving relationship with me or my younger brother. When my stepfather had been drinking he seemed to resent us…

Peeling the Onion

Peeling the Onion

Consider the onion as a metaphor, how does it apply to alcohol and addiction? Onions, like people come in all sizes and colors. An onion is usually round – a circle denoting wholeness but must be peeled to find the gold inside…

The Wording was, of course, Quite Optional

The Wording was, of course, Quite Optional

When I first started drinking, the party was on. I had found the magic elixir, the one thing that made everyone, including me, more interesting and more attractive. It was my first and longest love affair and well, we all know how the story ends. The proverbial doors were closing…

Sobrio sin Dios

Sobrio sin Dios

Como un miembro de AA no creyente, es decir, uno que no tiene un Dios en su vida, estoy agradecido de estar continuamente sobrio durante veintiséis años, desde que llegué a AA, a la edad de cincuenta y tres años…

A Vegan in a Steakhouse

A Vegan in a Steakhouse

I started drinking again in 2016 and by March of 2019 I could no longer pretend that I had the slightest bit of control over it. The situation had to be addressed…

My Old Big Book

My Old Big Book

It’s the day after my 31st sobriety anniversary, and feeling somewhat sentimental, I pull my old Big Book down from the shelf where it’s remained unread for years. It’s a third edition, paperback, dark blue with the words “Alcoholics Anonymous” discretely embedded in the cover…

Brookvale and Burwood

Brookvale and Burwood

How can anyone describe what AA means to them, what their sobriety has done for them? Can the answer be found in literature whether it be theistic, atheistic or scientific? Or perhaps the answer can be found online. If anyone asks me this question, the best response I can give…

Learning-to-Fit-Into-Myself

Learning-to-Fit-Into-Myself

I’ve been in recovery since December 15, 2014. I haven’t been sober the entire time, but do mention I’ve been in recovery since then and this seems to upset many hardcore, old school members of various programs…

Why Did I Drink; Does it Matter?

Why Did I Drink; Does it Matter?

I do not know why I drank; I do not know why I drank to excess. Drinking changed my relationships, threatened my livelihood and just made me look stupid. I did not always think so…

Elisabeth H.

Elisabeth H.

A Secular Sobriety, authored by Dale K. is an invaluable tool for anyone who may be interested in a secular interpretation of the 164 pages of AA’s Big Book. Dale takes the reader through the first 164 pages, but rewritten as a secular version of the book. The book…

My Liver is Fine: An Excerpt from “The Beginning of the End”

My Liver is Fine: An Excerpt from “The Beginning of the End”

To put it bluntly, I’ve been slowly dying over the past few years. It’s hard to determine exactly when I started dying, but the cold hard facts of my life changed about three years ago. It was Father’s Day, a particularly difficult day for me because I…

AA’s Big Tent Covers A Lot Of Ground

AA’s Big Tent Covers A Lot Of Ground

Alcoholics Anonymous is a big tent. Despite the emphasis on God and a Higher Power, there´s room inside for atheists and agnostics, as witness the three meetings listed in the Intergroup schedule. It´s a stretch, if one looks closely at what the Big Book says. Even the chapter…